April 21st, 22 nd and 23 rd : This challenge to me was all about seeing what I could actually do, if I just tried. Changing the what ifs into I can(s), and seeing how changing my activity level and mind set, could possibly promote healing (physically). So far, almost everything I had laid out for this month has happened, and I have managed pretty well. But the things I wanted to accomplish later this month, as in now, is a little more complexed, and health wise according to my doctors I can’t do until after I am healed from my next surgery. I found out Thursday going to a gym and lifting weights, or anything other than just walking I am not allowed to do. NEWS FLASH!! I can’t walk yet. When I informed my vascular nurse of this, she felt dumb and realized, that was stupid to suggest. This is what it looks like on the backend of healing from a surgery that impacts your life the way amputation has. Waiting… Lots of waiting, and hearing the word NO, a lot...