The decision to amputate my leg, came as a challenge. To describe it would never bring my feelings to justice. For months, I contemplated what life would be like with and without, one of my legs, I have only relied on my entire life! There was pressure, not really anyone twisting my arm or anything like that. It was TIME... Imagine sitting trapped in a bubble, you can see you can talk but you can't move... you can't do anything. so you just sit and you watch... EVERYDAY. You watch your friends going on amazing adventures. You see your loved ones get up get dressed head to work/school... and you just stay... in the same place as the days before, for weeks on end. You miss game days for your child's sports team, the celebration of your friends having babies, the events you planned so hard for. Just wasting away, almost non existent. I kept thinking to myself. "This must be what it ...
April 30 th ,2022 August 4 th , 2021, I packed Bear up (Bearren, 4-month-old at the time) in the Hummer and headed into town to pick up some formula. It was 10:03am when I left the house and at 10:10 am, my life changed. The last thing I saw behind a wheel of a car, was a Camry flying towards me, in my lane, then just smoke and airbags. This was the last time I was behind the wheel of a car… until today. That’s why this post is so late. I didn’t know how I felt, or how I did. I didn’t know how to put this experience into words. And honestly, I still don’t… The days before doing this, my anxiety grew at the anticipation finally trying to drive again. The morning of, I almost puked. But after an emotional breakdown to my husband, the weight of anxiety and the fear had eased. We talked for hours about how different life had become, and the fears and obstacles this event had brought us, but we are still here, we are still fighting, and we are making it happen...